No surprises, the blood test result was negative.
Had a meltdown at the pathology clinic this morning, resulting in me yelling at everyone in the waiting room. I'm sure it will be funny once this black cloud lifts.
Have come home from work early so I can mope in peace without running behind the bookcases to cry my eyes out.
I'm ready for happiness. I just wish it would find us already.
Oh Bec, I'm so very sorry. Even when you're prepared to hear it, the news still delivers a blow :(
ReplyDeleteI know you're ready for happiness and I truly hope it finds you both soon, you're definitely overdue for it and I'm keeping everything crossed that you get it.
Love your guts
xxxx
You need chocolate and lots of wine pronto.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Bec. Big, big hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Bec. I don't think any of this will ever be funny, but I hope someday, with your baby in your arms, you can look back and say it was all worth it!
ReplyDelete"I'm ready for happiness. I just wish it would find us already."
ReplyDeleteThis sentence really concerns me :(
I know it is really hard, but try to focus on the good in your life, in the happiness you have already. Putting all of it into one area - and an area that ultimately you have very little control over - is destructive, and will only do you harm in the long term.
You seem to be a really nice person... but if you dwell too much on what you don't have, I really think you're in danger of becoming very bitter, and not just about pregnancy and children. I would hate to see that.
Totally agree with the above comment. You seem to be obsessed with what you don't have in life, rather than what you do have. You clearly are already blessed with a wonderful life, yet you don't recognize other aspects of your life as blessings. Something to think about.
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