Another negative this morning and I am PMS'ing like there is no tomorrow so it is over. I guess I always knew that this would be the likely outcome. I'm trying hard to keep everything together. No tears and only positive thoughts, that our baby will come to us through adoption. And even if there is no baby, that we will have each other, and that could be enough.
I hope its ok for me to reply and send you encouraging thoughts. I followed your blog when I was going through adoption and IVF. I had 10 yrs before my son was brought to us through adoption. I am an older Mom as we went through IVF (5), embryo adoption, natural miscarriages and a failed adoption in Vietnam and lost all our monies when the countries fell out before being placed locally with our son at birth. I know how you feel and how heartbreaking it is. Just know God has your plan already set for you and your child in your path in his time not ours. Adoption is a long road but hang in and it will happen, there are so many children needing loving parents. Enjoy every moment with your husband now and don't lose out on laughter and your life now as it is. Being a Mom is not easy at all. Our son was born with drugs in his system, he has sensory and ADHD and defiance issues that came out when he was 3 yrs old and he is 5 now. Its been a difficult journey for my marriage and for our son. He is my everything and my all but I never knew such issues existed and how hard it would be. Do not ever give up on your dream of being a Mom but my advice from my journey is do not let it take away your memories now or your happiness, it will happen when its meant to happen. From reading your blog you will make great parents. I am sorry for the IVF not taking but do not give up hope and its so great you have a loving husband beside you. All the best.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Bec. I was really hopeful this cycle for you. Adoption is a beautiful journey to walk. It has it's difficulties but so worth every hurdle. Praying for you and you cope with this loss. I wish there was something I could do or say to make it better... but all I can do is say I've been there and felt this loss and it is so hard. It is hard to find the joy when all we want is a child and no matter what we do it doesn't seem to work. It's just not right the amount of money, time, energy we have to put into this journey. I wish I knew how it would end for you. HUGS my friend.
ReplyDeletethinking of you. still holding out hope for this cycle and will be waiting with you the next few days.
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to send you love and let you know I'm thinking of you
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