It's been a rough couple of days. I have been very excited about our trip away but the black dog has reared its head, making the last few days quite unbearable. For the last two weeks I have had a range of illnesses, from the flu, to gastro, to a cold. I woke up at 4am Saturday morning vomiting which wasn't pretty. I don't know where all the illness has come from, but I know that it has a terrible affect on my mental state.
Whenever I get ill, I get depressed. I recognise that it is depression and that it is linked to feeling sick and that I will get over it soon but when you are in that moment, it is so hard to get yourself through. Yesterday I was getting really agitated and depressed, I basically slept on the couch from 3pm until midnight because sleeping is the one relief that I get from the constant anxious and agitated feelings.
I do feel a lot better today, still a little anxious, but on the whole so much better than I was yesterday. It's amazing how much of a link there is between my physical and mental condition.
When I get back from my holiday, it is time for me to get back into shape - start eating healthily and heading back to the gym. I have a fair idea that part of my illness at least has been caused by not looking after myself and bingeing on whatever food I want to eat. I am also considering going back up 20mg on my anti-depressants, just to get myself through this winter patch.
Anyway, I am starting to pack for my holiday, the fogginess in my head is clearing so I am going to enjoy my husband and puppy, watch some footy on tv and look forward to my holiday away.
i think of you often, woman.
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I hope your holiday gives you some much need relaxation and time away from "real life" so to speak Bec.
ReplyDeleteI get the needing to look after yourself and get in shape comment too. It's around 3.5 months til I board a jetplane and wing my way overseas and I cannot go looking like I am, I feel ugh, so I'll join you on the kicking our arses into shape!
Hope you have a fab time on holiday, can't wait to see the pics!
*mwah*
xx
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I'm so sorry that you're feeling so down (if you've visited my blog in the recent past, you can see that I've gone through a tough time as well). I really hope that your trip gives you a welcome distraction, you definitely need one!
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I hope you feel better soon, physically and mentally, love. I'm sure a holiday with your man will do you WONDERS! I can't wait to read all about it.
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