Monday, 25 May 2009

It's over

This is not a viable pregnancy. The sac only measured 6 weeks, there was no sign of a baby or a heartbeat. I have been given the option to miscarry naturally or have a d&c. I have no preference for either.

I don't know how to feel. I have cried but only superficially. I feel numb. I have moments of extreme sadness yet I stop them as soon as they start, for I am too scared to deal with the pain it brings. I almost feel like it is happening to someone else. Surely it's not happening to me? I am pregnant remember? I've put on weight, my breasts are sore, I have bonded with my baby in utero. Surely it is all but a dream and I will wake up with a baby in my arms.

15 comments:

  1. Oh honey I'm SO sorry! Sending you SO many thoughts and prayers and hugs. I wish there was more I could do for you.
    *HUGS*

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  2. Oh crap Bec and Murray :( I've been thinking about you heaps and am so sad and sorry about the outcome xoxo

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  3. Oh bollocks, this was NOT the post I was hoping you were going to post today :-(

    I'm so sorry....

    *HUGS*

    xxx

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  4. Bugger! Bec I'm so desperately, profoundly sorry. Can I support you in any way?

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  5. I'm so sorry. Its not fair, you have been through so much.
    Thinking of you.

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  6. i am so sorry bec. i have no words, but i do have prayers.

    sending you big hugs.

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  7. This sucks, and I know how crushing it is. Big hugs to the both of you.

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  8. I'm so sorry. You have been through so much and I feel such sadness reading this. Please know you are in my thoughts.

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  9. Bec - I am at a loss for words. All I can say is that I am so sorry, I am thinking of you and wishing I was there to hug you. This is so wrong!

    My heart goes out to you and Murray!

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  10. I have been thinking of you all day, and when we had the same loss at 6 weeks, it was brutal, big hugs to you.
    I also deleted my blog, but, will continue to follow along with your journey.

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  11. Bec sweetheart, I'm so so sorry :( do whatever you think is best re the D&C, but if you need any advice (from someone who has had 2 D&Cs from 4 miscarriages), you know where to find me ok? Love to you and Murray xoxo

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  12. I'm very sorry. I don't know if you want any comfort at this time, but remember that your body knows how to be pregnant, so it can do it again.

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  13. Honey, I have no words. Just please know I am thinking of you both and praying for you. Will call you tonight. xx

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  14. From someone who is experiencing something similiar at the moment. My thoughts are with you ......Time heals.

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  15. Love and hugs. I am so sorry.

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