Day 12 - All over

As predicted, my cycle was cancelled this afternoon. My estrogen finally kicked in and went back up to 1500 but my follicles hadn't grown much at all. My primary follicle was at 24mm, but the next biggest was 13 with some at 9 and 8, and plenty of small ones at 6mm. The nurses said that I could trigger and do a timed intercourse cycle but Murray is going to Melbourne tomorrow so the timing would be off, and we know the likelihood of it working isn't worth the heartache. So it's over. Again.

I have left a message for my doctor to call me tomorrow about a change in protocol. I'm thinking that I might try a flare cycle with Lucrin injections, and hopefully he will consider moving my gonal-f dose to 150iu to see if that makes a difference. Which means starting all over again in November, as the clinic always wants a rest cycle in between treatment cycles. I don't bother fighting that any more, I realise that I need it for my sanity more than I realise.

I'm hurting but surviving. I have some beautiful friends who have helped me through today, distracting me and providing good loving.Thank you, you know who you are.