Sunday 5 February 2012

Alone

 Murray left yesterday for a two week mission trip to Thailand. While it is peaceful being at home by myself, it is also really tough. January was such a difficult month, between all the illness and injuries, and feeling so unstable mentally. I am definitely on the upside from that thank goodness, but it's going to take me awhile to adjust to being the only one around, excluding of course my doggies. 

I have been thinking a lot about how to get my life back in order, and after speaking to a therapist to help sort myself out, I have chosen to not do any units this semester at uni. It's been a big focus of mine, espescially as I get closer to finishing my degree, but with so much happening in my life right now, something had to give, and between work, health, family and uni, well uni fell to the bottom of the priority list. So besides church, I will have no after hours or weekend commitments. I'm not too concerned about falling behind- I've been doing a summer unit by correspondence which thank goodness is nearly done, so I won't fall behind anyhow. Let's just hope I am able to get back into study mode come July!

I got a phone call from my brother who is deployed in Afghanistan on Wednesday. It was really exciting to hear from him. According to my weather app, it is snowing where he is, and he mentioned that he has a cold as do half of the troops, but than that he is doing well. He got his first care package from us- my Mum and I bought him a kindle so he can read books whenever he wants. I've since sent two more with magazines, Austaliana merchandise, playing cards, and lollies! Hope it reminds him that we are all thinking of him.

Work is a little nuts at the moment due to some internal changes. Its really interesting work and I have a greater scope in my work which is awesome, but I am also working longer hours trying to get the workload under control. Career-wise it is a great opportunity so I am going to continue to work hard at it.

On the fertility front, I spoke to my clinic to see where we were on the donor embryo front. She said they have one embryo available, but it is from a 45 year olds eggs, which she said would be little point for us to try with, and we agree. The coordinator did say that there are a few people who have done all of the counseling etc but just haven't returned the final forms, but unfortunately sometimes those people at the end either don't want to pursue it or just forget about it. I'll continue to call back each month, Hoping someone has decided to donate their embryos. 

So that's me. So much, yet so little to say. 

2 comments:

  1. I think taking a break from your studies is a good thing. I am so glad that you recognize the fact that you need to take care of you right now.

    This too shall pass, my friend.

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  2. I'm sorry that Murray left and you're feeling a bit lonely. I have no doubt the 2 weeks will FLY by!

    Enjoy your breathing room! I'm sure when it comes time to get back, you will be just fine.
    *HUGS*

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