Trying a slower ride this time...

Maybe the bumper cars instead?

After the events of the last week, we have decided to go ahead with another fresh cycle next month. Although our insurance wont cover us, Murray's parents are generously going to cover our hospital costs, which makes it affordable for us to try again.

Our reasoning is that while I am in the headspace to be able to go ahead with treatment, we should do it. I honestly don't know if emotionally I would be able to cope with waiting and being unsuccessful. That probably doesn't make sense to anyone else but me, but I guess I'm the only person who needs to understand it.

Work isn't going particuarly well at the moment. I have moved to a new position which, while it keeps me busy, it is tedious without being challenging, and I get very little job satisfaction from it. I have seriously considered quitting, but the benefits of working for a semi-government company mean I just can't. I earn too much money, get long-service leave in September after only 3 years working there, and they are looking at bumping paid maternity leave up to 14 weeks or 28 weeks at half-pay. So I am just going to have to suck it up and deal with it. But there is no way I can deal with having a crappy job, and deal with not being able to do IVM. I know my emotional limits, and I am well and I have well and truly reached them. I have managed to survive my infertility in the past because my job has provided a good distraction from it all. I no longer have that to help me.

Had a blood test this morning to see if my hormone levels had increased, but they are still baseline. I had a chat with the clinic nurse, and they are concerned that my egg collection for next cycle will be around Easter, when of course most people are away. I never realised before that because IVM is so new and specialised, that only certain people can do the procedures. So only my specialist Doreen can do the egg collection, and only the head embryologist Steve can mature the eggs. Hence, it is vital that they are both around when we are doing an IVM cycle.

We considered going back to doing IVF, but decided to stick with IVM for a couple of reasons.
1- Less drugs in my system. The difference between our cancelled IVF cycle and our full IVM cycle were sooooo different. I don't think I would cope very well with having to go back to sniffing and daily injections.
2- Shorter cycle time is fantastic. It gives me confidence to know exactly when things are happening, rather than the up-in-the-air approach to IVF.
3- Because only Doreen can do the egg collectio, and only Steve can work on the embryos, it gives me a sense of security, and I feel that I get a lot of extra support from the clinic. Maybe that's my imagination, but I didn't really feel that support in our first round of IVF.

Just remind me of all those things when I am whinging about my next egg pick up!

I am glad we made a decision on what to do quickly. I can't let this stuff hang around in my head for too long.