So I haven't been around for a little while. Murray and I have been off to Indonesia to the island of Bali. I was very apprehensive about going. That's underselling it, I was dreading going away - I was in a really bad place and I couldn't think of anything more than just dragging myself out of bed, going to work, and then going straight back to bed afterwards. All I can say is that this break was exactly what I needed.
Not to say that I am cured, not by a long shot. I've realised I need to stop myself from ever getting to this point. I have an appointment on the 20th to see a psychologist through a mental health centre to help me with coping skills and set up a plan for future trigger events which will be really good for me.
Back to the holiday, Murray and I had a really great time together. Bali is very different to what I expected - 3rd world yet some pockets (tourist areas) are absolute luxury. Hard to reconcile the two extremes sometimes. We did lots of relaxing, drank fresh fruit juices by the pool, walked around for hours, had delicious food followed by decadent massages. And we just spent time together, which was the antidote I needed to my loneliness.
I haven't gone through my photos properly yet but here are a couple from our time away.
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| Bali Bombing Memorial in Kuta |
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| Happy Hour |
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| Tanah Lot |
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| Monkies playing around at Uluwatu temple |
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| Shopping - my favourite pasttime |
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| Uluwatu |
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| Hang by the pool, next to the ocean? Don't mind if I do! |
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| Hopping Shoes! |
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| Rice patties near Ubud |
I really struggle with depression and lately it has gotten really bad and it's so hard to pull out of. I agree with setting up safety points but unfortunately for me that hasn't been possible. I am so glad your vacation helped. I'm heading to visit my dad at the beach and am really hoping it brings some relief. Anyway, sorry to make it about me, but I just wanted to say I completely understand and you're not alone and I hope things continue getting better and better for you =)
ReplyDeletei'm glad the trip away did you good, i thought it might. just getting away from normality can sometimes do wonders!
ReplyDeleteVERY happy to hear that you have a plan in place for your depression :-))
interesting to hear your thoughts on bali, it's not somewhere Guv or i have any desire to go to, no matter how cheap it is!
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Bec I am so glad you had a good break with Murray. I really admire you for the way you can be so honest about where you are at emotionally. Good luck on the 20th xx
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