A day of remembrance

Tomorrow is the day my baby Vanilla was due to be born.

I miss her so much. It hurts.

Chaos - And other news

In other news, it was a shitty Christmas for Murray and I, in more ways than one! We managed to get gastro on Christmas Eve and spent all Christmas Day and part of Boxing Day vomiting and taking turns using the only bucket in our house - now that is a picture of wedded bliss! We are just starting to feel normal again today, our neighbours have had the bug as well as a few other people in the area - not nice at all. It also meant we slept on our couch all day and didn't go to either families christmas breakfast/lunch which was quite sad. Christmas is my favourite time of the year and I feel like it has completely missed me by now. I was very spoilt by Murray though. In addition to my fantastic new bike, I got given Chanel Coco Mademoiselle Eau de Parfum which is equisite - my first item of Chanel!


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What else is going on.... my youngest brother (the good one!) is moving over 4000km away to live in Brisbane next week. He is in the Australian Army and has been based at Swanbourne Barracks in the SAS for the last 18 months, but now has been posted to a Brisbane unit. I am really happy and excited for him but also sad that I wont get to see him very much. He turns 20 in January and I realise he isn't a kid anymore, but he is and always will be my baby brother. I guess after all the drama with my other brother, it makes me appreciate Daniel even more and how he goofs off and can always make me smile. I am very nervous that he may be posted overseas when he is in Brisbane. I have caught pieces of conversation about a possible posting to Afghanistan in March which scares the crap out of me. But that is what he trains for so... far too much to think about anyway, and there is no point worrying about something that might not happen - especially when I have so much other stuff going on in my life!


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Fertility Specialist appointment on Jan 4 - Freaking Out. Nuff said.

Merry Christmas!

Wishing you and your family a Merry Christmas. Enjoy spending time with each other today, whether it be in person, on the phone or in your hearts. Spread the love around.

Love you all

Bec xxx

Helping my brother

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Bleh

Alicia is pregnant and doesn't know who the father is. She has now broken up with the new boyrfriend because he found out that it might not be his (he obviously didn't know she had been sleeping with Mitch). I am angry at her and the situation she has gotten herself (and all of us) into. You have four children in foster care who have been taken off of you - how unfair is it to them for you to go and bring another child into this world who you can not provide and care for? But now she is saying she will have an abortion, which breaks my heart again. Why put yourself in the position where you need an abortion. You are 21 and have four children - you know how babies are made!

Oh. My. God.

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My Christmas Present from Murray

I've decided that I need to get back into my fit and healthy lifestyle - I am now 10kg heavier than I was in July 2008 which sucks balls. Big time. Most of that weight I have put on this year since the miscarriage. I know I have every excuse under the sun for why I have put it on, but that doesn't make the weight go away. Stupid time of year to start trying to get healthy again but it's worth a shot. I don't want to come out of the christmas season even bigger than what I am now.

So my Christmas present from Murray this year is...

A new bike! I haven't owned a bike since I was a kid, I even had to borrow one for my triathlon earlier in the year, so I decided to get my act together and get myself sorted! A new bike store opened up a couple of weeks ago in our area so we decided to check it out - and we picked out this baby for me! I also got a new helmet, lock and lights and am getting the lights and a drink bottle holder installed. I get to pick it up in about a weeks time which is very exciting! My gym is about 2km from my house, which I find too far to walk to there and back after doing a hard workout, but the perfect distance for a quick ride which will be my new goal.

So my health plan is to get myself in shape so I can go in the same ladies triathlon that I did this year - and try and beat my score! I will still stick to the mini-version, but I definitely want to go a lot faster than what I did before, fingers crossed.

I'm not going to deprive myself over christmas, but I am committed to making good choices with my food and drink over the festive period.

Not long til Christmas now...!

Things just keep getting better...

Murray got offered a job!!! He is going to be a year 11/12 teacher at the Australian Technical College, teaching kids doing their apprenticeships in English! He will be teaching at two campuses and part of his role will also involve him going around to the students workplaces to check on their progress for their apprenticeships. It will definitely be a change from the normal school environment, but we are both super excited about this as it will give him a lot more responsibility and a change in environment. It will also be a predominantely male group which hopefully will create a friendlier environment.

So things are really starting to look up for us!!!

Holiday Itinerary is booked!

I am super excited - we booked all of our accomodation for our holiday last night!

We are staying at the Traders Hotel in Kuala Lumpur...

...the Berjaya Resort in Langkawi...

 

...and the Scarlet Hotel in Singapore!

 

 

yayayayay!

Murray and I decided to go all out and have booked another holiday! We are off to Kuala Lumpur for three nights, Langkawi for five nights and Singapore for two nights! We are pretty broke right now but some crazy cheap flights came up that we couldn't say no to - we got all of our flights for well under $1000 (gotta love that the dollar hs picked up!) and accomodation will be super cheap as well. We are going in the July school holidays, so still a while away yet, but something really nice to look forward to if everything (adoption/ivf) goes to shit.

Oh and in other fantastic news - Murray had a job interview today, and two more schools have called him for job interviews, one is tomorrow, the other is Monday. One of them is a VERY exclusive school in Perth - and it comes with a lot of perks so fingers crossed he just gets offered a job already!